Wednesday, January 27, 2010

Square pegs and round holes.....

Do you ever just feel like you don't belong? I look around me and I am constantly frustrated thinking "God, I know that there is more to your plan for my life than this". I grew up in a small youth group with a LOT of young leaders. Now, in fact because we were a small church it basically meant that all the youth were young leaders.We never took our salvation for granted. We pressed in with everything we had, forsaking all others in pursuit of the kingdom of God. Our hang-outs included "Nerts" and discussions about deliverance, the love of God, spiritual deepness, etc...None of us doubted the destiny of any of us. We were called. We were chosen. We were going to change the world. And I still believe that wholeheartedly.

Now, I look around me and there aren't any Hardkor people here. No one who I can talk about my experiences, my zeal and desires with...And all of the sudden, I realize I have been trying to cram this square peg I was created as into the round hole that is nearby, just so I can pretend to fit in somewhere...I can dig it in there pretty good but it's never going to fit perfectly. My destiny was never to be in a round hole so it's always going to feel uncomfortable and strange and it's always going to make me frustrated. So the question is, Where do I find my square hole, because I refuse to waste more time fitting into the wrong size and wasting time that is precious to my destiny. Hardkor kids would have it no other way.

Hebrews 12: 1-3 Do you see what this means—all these pioneers who blazed the way, all these veterans cheering us on? It means we'd better get on with it. Strip down, start running—and never quit! No extra spiritual fat, no parasitic sins. Keep your eyes on Jesus, who both began and finished this race we're in. Study how he did it. Because he never lost sight of where he was headed—that exhilarating finish in and with God—he could put up with anything along the way: Cross, shame, whatever. And now he's there, in the place of honor, right alongside God. When you find yourselves flagging in your faith, go over that story again, item by item, that long litany of hostility he plowed through. That will shoot adrenaline into your souls! (Message)


Jen said...

Bloom where you're planted....!?!?!? I always knew you were cut from a different cookie cutter! ha ha ha
No but really Ashley, you do stand out. You've got something special. You ARE going to change the world. Jesus THROUGH you. God qualifies the called...not calls the qualified. I love that saying!
Ps. I consider it a total blessing that I have gotten to know you...and be in your life for this time. I'm sure you won't be here forever...but I know my life is richer because of you...and your amazing words of wisdom! XOXO!

nertzfan said...

It's cool to see others that know about Nertz. You should definitely check out , the site for the National Nertz Association. There is a bunch of interesting Nertz information, videos, and photos there AND you can play Nertz on-line for free. I recommend it to all Nertz players! So cool. =)

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