Thursday, July 9, 2009

Party Pooper

Well, I decided to take the few minutes I have free today and blog a little. I have been so busy and in a good way. Work is going really well, and although I need to focus a little harder on new time has been very busy with the ones I currently have! How am I supposed to cultivate new relationships when I can barely keep up with the ones I have now?!? I find in amusing that as hard as I try to be organized I can still manage to get SO FAR BEHIND at work and at home.

I truly haven't had more than 15 minutes at a time at home, and I certainly haven't used that time to clean my house. Unfortunately for me, when my house in a disarray, that carries over to everything else in my life. I not only run around ragged but have become incredibly forgetful! I totally blame that on a messy house. I just don't know when to get to it?!?! This week, my week looked like this: Monday night-Worked until 6:30; Tuesday night- Started my day at 7:15 at CNE and was still in meetings at 6:30 that night; Wednesday night- Worked until 5:30 and headed to church..Got home at 9pm; Thursday night- Events from 10am-7pm then church until 8:30; Friday night ( well I suppose I COULD clean some Friday night); Saturday- Car Wash from 9am-3pm and Sunday-Church...See?? I do NOT make this stuff up!!

And now I am adding on top of everything else school (which I start in less than a month) and I just can't imagine what else could fall by the wayside...I have missed my favorite classes all week and unfortunately, I don't see that changing any time soon..It's just a busy time of year! Of course, any time of year is a busy time of year for my family!! I am really tired..I wish I could sleep well, work out, go to work, clean my house, handle the youth group, go to school and be a good wife and balance it all well enough to earn an award but I just don't see that happening...

Honestly sometimes I worry about (with all these plates balancing) which one will be the next to fall?? I have already lost sleep well and clean house to the pit below my balance beam...
I realize how much it SOUNDS like I am complaining but if I can't complain on my own blog, then nothing is sacred. Til next time, Ashley

Monday, July 6, 2009

Let Freedom Ring

Well another Monday has come along and ruined my wonderful weekend. And, this weekend, was in fact wonderful. I was so blessed to get to reconnect with old friends, spend quality time with not-so-old friends and celebrate the independence of my country complete with BBQ and fireworks all in one weekend. It really was splendid. I was so excited to meet my friend Ruth's darling little girl and see how conscious Ruth is not to let her become a wimp like her mommy (ha ha) and she is definitely NOT one..She is fearless and just the cutest little this this side of AR (my nephews live there so I suppose I am biased) Anyways, if I were to be easily swayed, she would make me want kids :-)....Don't worry though, I'm not.

In other news, we have a lot of great activities planned for the youth coming up in the next couple of weeks including a car wash, camp, a barbeque and a float trip. I think come fall, I am going to take a break from planning so many activities...especially with my Masters starting then. I just don't think I can do it all! Not to mention the unappreciation I feel at times. I really have to pray through those emotions because its hard sometimes not to allow myself to become angry and bitter. Parents are most of the time, the worst. They want their kids to have plenty of stuff to be involved with and do all summer but don't recognize that we have to sacrifice a lot to make that happen. They just don't think its a big deal to just not bring their kids to stuff. Well, when you have youth leaders who work full-time jobs outside of the church and have many other obligations to tend to, its a real slap in the face to see that even the parents are willing to walk all over you. It hurts, but I know this is only for a season and I trust that in the bigger canvas God is painting, its all for a reason.

I have added a classy picture of my nephew Isaac to this post for everyone's enjoyment. He has really become a Poppa's boy (my mom's husband Steven) and just loves the freedom that comes with Nana and Poppa...Its so cute! I wish I saw him more often but hopefully he knows who I am anyways....

To all out there, be proud of our country. Of those who fought and those who died, so that each year on July 4th, we can celebrate that we are indeed Free. I love this country. I am so proud to be an American and I am proud of the Americans who serve our country so I can say these things without fear of punishment. God Bless America.