That pretty much describes my emotions yesterday.
We were 99% sure (the same way a pregnant woman might think she is) that our referral would be a boy. We hadn't specified and we certainly didn't care...but in the course of things, we had just assumed things would go a certain way (we should have known better since NOTHING in this process has gone as planned) =)
and we were 100% sure that nothing would be happening any time soon. Last we heard, nothing was expected to move for a while. Paperwork nonsense...clarification....bleh.
So, to get the call?
To realize that in that moment our lives were changing?
But in shock and awe....The awe is the best part.
We immediately felt immensely blessed as we looked at our daughter's big beautiful dow-eyes and small frame.
We were in love with her serious expression and what was described as her "reserved" personality.
And we were overwhelmed by the spiritual and natural redemption that adoption brings.
When we looked at her face and read about her story, all we could think was...
She is our daughter.
We hope to never take for granted how blessed we are that God has chosen us to protect, shepherd, and steward her life...even for a short time.
We may have initially been shocked. But it was the awe that changed us forever.