You know, truly and completely uncertain about your surroundings or which way to turn to get where you want to be...
It can be debilitating.
It can be confusing.
It can be downright scary.
I grew up in a small rural town in the South. My playground was the woods behind our house and the creek a few miles away.
I remember being gone from sun-up to sundown playing in those woods. Running barefoot down the dirt road because my old tennis shoes were soaked from playing in the creek. Eating berries off the side of the road. Climbing trees so high I could see for miles and miles. Discovering new places and new adventures all the time.
But I don't ever remember being lost.
Strange, isn't it? I rarely knew where I was...
but I always knew where I was...
When I think about my life now? My dreams? My "plans"? I often get distracted by the steps involved. When I don't know what step comes next, I immediately become frozen with fear.
And I can't help but wonder...at what point in my life did not knowing where I was stop being a new adventure? When did I become so afraid of the unknown?
I sit here confused. Because to tell you the truth...there are no balls in the air. There are so many things I want to do in life and I? just don't know which way to turn to get there. And I wish I saw it as a new adventure. I wish I could see myself as an explorer discovering new seasons in life.
I want to be that person.
But more often than not, I stand in front of the mirror and remind myself that God will never let you miss His destiny for you if you are seeking Him.
And yet, that doesn't mean it's going to happen today.
That's why it's called Faith.
Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see. Hebrews 11:1 (NIV 2011)