Letters to my Child: Thinking of You

To My Darling,

    I was thinking about you today. Wondering if you have been born yet. Knowing that, even if you haven't yet, your first-mother knows about you. I wonder what she's thinking, carrying your precious life. I wonder if she has nourishment. I think about how she feels. What she's thinking. But, I am certain of one thing. She loves you. I know this because she chose to give you life. She didn't take the easy way out. She didn't give up. Maybe she knows that you deserve a chance at life. Maybe she's confident that, no matter what happens, no matter where you end up, that you'll be loved. She's right, you know? I already think about you every day. Thinking about how my every action and decision affects you. Thinking about what it will be like to meet you, hold you, rock you to sleep. Wondering how quickly you will start picking up on our quirks...Things we won't even realize we do until we start seeing it in you. Thinking about how many people will want to meet you as soon as you get home. There are a lot of people who already love you, you know? So many people are helping us bring you home, excited about meeting you and spending time with you...That's a lot of love. I can't wait for you to meet everyone. I can't wait to bring you home. We're working on it, baby...We're making progress...slowly. It's strange, time is moving so slow right now but I know that once you're home it will move far too quickly. So, for now, I will cherish every step that brings me closer to you and I will think of you more than you could ever know.

With all my love,

Mommy